Sabado, Enero 8

ASAN KA NA BA?


Asan ka ba?
Bakit ‘di parin makita?
Di ko matanaw
Mukha mong kay-ganda.

Asan ka ba?
Bakit ‘di ko marinig?
Nabibingi ako…
Sa tinig mong kay sarap sa tenga.

Asan ka ba?
Bakit ‘di ko na naaamoy?
Sinisipon pa nga ako…
Sa pabango mong galing Abroad.

Asan ka ba?
Bakit ‘di kita mahawakan?
Abutin mo naman ako…
Baka kasi naputol na mga kamay ko.

Asan ka ba?
Bakit ang tagal mo?
Nagising ako…
Madaming tao at magulo
Nasa labas pala ang kabaong mo.

Makikita pa ba kita???

EMPTY GLASS OF LOVE


I remember you with me
In a cold December night,
resting under an apple tree,
full of happiness and love.
There was a classical music you played,
A tear fell from my eyes…
causing you to hug me tight.
Never thought it would be the last.
You came to me and said goodbye.
My heart explodes and left wounded.
You prove me wrong…because,
You do still love me.
Time made us separated,
Days…
Weeks…
Months…
Years…
There was no you.
Please hear my heart calling…
I am here, waiting…
Staring at your empty glass.

WHEN IT WAS YOU

He’s got brown eyes and 5’6 in height
What makes him special?
Well, I really don’t know.
We used to be the same,
but not that much often.
I let him enter my dream and fantasy,
when everything seems so easy.
Now I would be lost and going crazy,
for having someone, but not you.
If I could just make reverse,
the whole chapter of it,
I’d make history for you to keep.
If you believe that dreams come true,
There’s one that is waiting for you.
Because I believe, since I found you
There’s got to be more beautiful in life
when it was you.

TO YOU MY FRIEND...WHY CAN'T I LOVED?

Insanity brings me to death
Foolishness driving me to a dark whole
Of my created grave.
This once the feeling I really
Don’t want to embrace.
How can I conquer this unbraveness?
If saying “I love You”,  is just like
Telling you, “Please let me go”.
When is the time that you were mine?
When In my heart, I’m pushing you away.
This is not the path I really want us to be.
In fact, your love is so rare my friend.
But the phantom of the past has sealed my fragile heart.
Why does sorrow creeps and frightens me?
I want him to let me go and let you buried here,
buried here in my life ‘til forever.
Our souls was united,
Our hearts belongs together.
Life is so unpredictable,
But would you live for me?



YOU OVER MY UNUSUAL WORLD












In many different faces I saw,
only one could just say so
that I have this fragile heart,
wrapped in a golden scarf.


In many different places,
I felt emptiness, incurable diseases.
Drowning in my own dark memoirs
Sets free in the arms of my own.

In many different heartbeats, I heard
Only one could comprehend,
such failing and frail heart.
A  hoodwink creature, slayer, but packed of love.
In many different hands I used to hold,
Walked away, grasp is being told.
Building an enormous wall of separation,
breaking the love I’ve found within.

In all of different colors that surrounds me,
only one burnishes and makes my day.
You within my altering world,
opens an innovative window in idyllic way.

HAPPY-GO-LUCKY

Pa lakad-lakad.
Pa tawa-tawa.
Pa kain-kain.
Pa upo-upo.

Sige lang,
Mag-lakwatsa ka!
Tambay dito.
Tambay doon.

Marami pang oras.
Mamaya na ‘yang Project
D’yan lang muna
ang Assignments.
Laro ditto.
Laro doon.
Tulog ditto.
Tulog doon.

Exam na pala!
Hala! Time’s up!
Blangko…
Zero!

UNDYING LOVE OF A WRECKED HEART

For once in my life
I’ve loved.
But then,
I failed.

Another in my life,
I’ve loved.
But sadly,
I’m hurt.

Again in my life,
I’ve loved.
But unfortunately,
I am totally wounded.

And now,
I love him forever…
But he broke it.
I am wholly wrecked.

BESTFRIENDS

I was so young when I met you
You’re always there when I needed you.
Since then, you said to me,
You’re going to be my Superhero.

But why I feel so uneasy?
I can’t control the dictate of this heart.
I feel like screaming
And now my heart is throbbing.

I am suffocated by your tight caress.
I am in pain, but you can’t understand.
You thought I just didn’t want to hold you,
But it’s just that I am afraid to tell you…

I’m not the perfect girl you want me to be.
I’ve made mistakes when I feel this way…
We’re only best of friends and there’s no other way,
To be in grown up’s path.

EVIL HEART


He was a butcher in the
 middle of the night...

I stayed in a dark room
but he was there, waiting to
ambush and stole my
unbreakable heart.

I wished I have that amulet
to break this fear...

I breathe...

I breathe...

I breathe...

And took a deep breathe!

He was there outside,
to take me away.

To enslave me!

He saw me!

I shot him!

I am here...

Hovering between life and death.

No! 
I killed myself...

I won’t let that man prison me
in his evil heart.

LOVE, TRULY NEVER DIES

How can we express ourselves to the ones we love in just a short time? How can we express the love we feel, if we know, that our time to live, counts?

I was reading a book one night written by Paulo Coelho. The book was entitled, LIKE THE FLOWING RIVER. It was all about his life’s experience and my heart was really touched by all words he wrote on the book. I thought that the book was dedicated to me, for everything that was written there, made reflections on me too. Every pages and chapters affected me.

As I turned the pages, I was able to read this cute and amazing love story. Maybe this story could be entitled as THE TALE OF OASIS, but on the chapter of the book, it was entitled as THE CLOUD AND THE SAND DUNE. I just want to share this story that made me smile on the time that I have no one to talk to. 
Here’s how the story started;

“As everyone knows, the life of a cloud is very busy and very short,” writes Bruno Ferrero. And here’s a related story.

A young cloud was born in the midst of a great storm over the Midditerranean Sea, buthe did not even have time to grow up there, for a strong wind pushed all the clouds over towards Africa.

As soon as the clouds reached the continent, the climate changed. A bright sun was shining in the sky and, stretched out beneath them, lay the golden sands of the Sahara. Since it almost never rains in the desert, the wind continued pushing the clouds towards the forests in the south.
Meanwhile, as happens with young humans too, the young cloud decided to leave his parents and his older friends in order to discover the world.
“What are you doing?” cried the wind. “The desert’s the same all over. Rejoin the other clouds, and we’ll go to Central Africa where there are amazing mountains and trees.”

But the young cloud, a natural rebel, refused to obey and, gradually, he dropped down until he found a gentle, generous breeze that allowed him to hover over the golden sands. After much toing and froing, he noticed that one of the dunes was smiling at him.

He saw that the dune was also young, newly formed by the wind that had just passed over. He fell in love with her golden hair right there and then.
“Good morning.” he said. “What’s life like down there?”
“I have the company of the other dunes, of the sun and the wind, and of the caravans that occasionally pass through here. Sometimes it’s really hot, but it’s still bearable. What’s life up there?”
“We have the sun and wind too, but the good things is that I can travel across the sky and see more things.”
“For me,” said the dune, “life is short. When the wind returns from the forests, I will disappear.”
“And does that make you sad?”
“It makes me feel that I have no purpose in life.”
“I feel the same. As soon as another wind comes along, I’ll go south and be transformed into rain, but that is my destiny.”
The dune hesitated for a moment, then said;
“Did you know that here in the desert, we call the rain paradise?”
“I had no idea. I could ever be that important,” said the cloud proudly.
“I’ve heard other older dunes tell stories about the rain. They say that, after the rain, we are all covered with grass and flowers. But I’ll never experience that, because in the desert it rains so rarely.”

It was the cloud’s turn to hesitate now. Then he smiled broadly and said;
“If you like, I could rain on you now. I know I’ve only just got here, but I love you, and I’d like to stay here forever.”
“When I first saw you up in the sky, I fell in love with you too,” said the dune. “But if you transform your lovely white hair into rain, you will die.”
“Love never dies,” said the dune. “It is transformed, and, besides, I want to show you what paradise is like.”

And he began to caress the dune with little drops of rain, so that they could stay together for longer, until a rainbow appeared.
The following day, the little dune was covered in flowers. Other clouds that passed over, heading the Africa, thought that it must be part of the forest they were looking for and scattered more rain. Twenty years later, the dune had been transformed into an oasis that refreshed travellers with the shade of the trees.

And all because, one day, a cloud fell in love, and was not afraid to give his life for that love.



Huwebes, Enero 6

HARRIETT (an Autobiography)

It was a sunny morning on the 18th day of April 1991 when my mother Margie gave birth to her fourth child. This was a day when I saw the world around her for the first time. Harriett was the name given to me by my dad Henry and for me  this was a great and a unique name.
Seven months after birth I was brought by my mom to my grandparents’ house in Masbate where my three older sisters lived. I am the fourth child among five siblings. Both our parents live here in Manila because of their work, that’s why we had to be at our grandparents side. I grew up with my Lola. She’s the one who took care of me while my parents were away.
I entered Kindergarten at the age of five at St. Joseph Kindergarten in our province and I got my first award as  the Most Honest Student. I was really proud as a child to have such kind of award as a first step in my schooling. At the age of six, I entered as a temporary student in Grade 1 at Umabay Exterior Elementary School and started my elementary grades at the age of seven in the same school. In elementary, I was a consistent first honor student and was awarded as the Valedictorian when I graduated. But it was not easy for me to achieve those accomplishments. In my years in that school, I pursued to prove them that I have what it takes to succeed. It didn’t matter for me to be applauded every time I receive an award but what mattered was being recognized by my family and that they have something to be proud of.

When I was in Grade one my mom died from heart attack. It was the first saddest time I felt. The last time we saw each other was when I graduated in kinder and that was the last time I saw her alive. It was also the most painful time for our family because it was unexpected losing her. We never expected it to happen so early. At a very young age I learned how to give importance to the ones I love.
Everything changed fast since I entered high school. It wasn’t easy for me to interact with different people and with different personalities. During my first year in high school, I really felt that there would always be criticism everytime I presented myself to them. There are people who went to school just for fun and popularity, but some were for their future and family. I was just an average student but I aimed to be on top. I took my high school life seriously;extra-curricular activities like sports, drawing, crafts, etc. were my favorites. I was afraid to fail in class, that was why I motivated myself to take everything seriously and enjoyed my studies. I enjoyed understanding the concepts more than just memorizing ready made notes.
High school years seemed to be the happiest. This is the time when I found my best friends. Friends whom I can rely on and who can understand my silence. Crushes? This isn’t new in high school. Funny to say, having a crush was one of the reasons why I went to school early and went home late. But that was only when he was having a table tennis game. I watched and cheered with my best friends. It’s true that being in love affects your mind and could make you high like  taking drugs. A feeling I used to feel when love striked me for the first time. I wasn’t sure of everything so I contradicted my feelings just to make sure I won’t look stupid.

After I enjoyed life in high school, I prepared myself  for another chapter in my life. That was also the time when I had to leave my grandma and went back to Cavite to be with my dad and my sisters. I used to plan what I wanted to be in the future, prepared myself in college, be more responsible as a student and act professionally. This time wasn’t easy for me, though. I thought that it would be similar to high school. I took the last exam in TUP. It was the only university I applied for college. With God’s help, I passed the exam but dad didn’t want me to take up the course I wanted. I never wrote Fine Arts on the list of choices when I took the exam. But when I had the opportunity to enter the university, I pushed myself to have the course I loved. On the last minute of the enrollment, dad approached me to choose what I wanted. I just followed what he said and I knew that he was also happy with my choice. I never expected him to change his mind.
College life was full of excitements, loaded with surprises and loaded with templates for my course. My first year in college was tragic. Dad died; same like mom. That time I asked God why He had to take dad away that early. Why sometimes we are only given a few minutes to be with the ones we love?  I always look at those bad things that happened and tried to be positive while my own world seems to be more negative. The pain that was brought by his death didn’t fade easily. I treasured those times especially the last moment I was with dad. “No pain,no gain...” I won’t forget those words he said to me. It is sad to say that I can never hear those words again. He’s not just a father to me, but also a mother and a friend.  I’m so proud and lucky that I’m one of his daughters.

Life isn’t always good all the time. What we have to do is carry ourselves in such a way that when the people of the world are sitting, you would be standing...and when the world is standing, you will stand out. And when the world stands out, you’ll be outstanding.
Today, I know that those things in the past have their purpose in the present and in the future. The positive attitude to face hardships brought out the best in me. I am looking forward to face the challenges of life in a positive manner.

Broken? Unknown...

It's really hard to smile when you really know that everyday your life goes on but their is something wrong.
When you want everything to be fixed instantly yet you can't do anything about it but to sit and cry alone.
When you're trying to be positive in your own way but your world seems to be more negative.
Then you look for a thing which could help you but everything is just being useless.
Are you trying to give up now?
Answerable by yes or no but you're thinking "why?" ..what am i going to explain? Nobody could answer me and i couldn't.
I couldn't answer it with Yes because how's my life would be if i did and what i'm going to do if i said No..?
Would everything change if i chose to explain one of them?
People might say that everything would be okay..it's not just the time. But would you wait for that time before everything would fall on its right place? Maybe you would just wait.. wait until it's over..wait until there's no more left behind..but only you.
But at this moment alone..words on your mind is Unknown.

Sabado, Enero 1

On the Beach

I missed this kind of place where i couldn't find in the city.
More beautiful beaches in our province (Masbate) where we could go and have some fun with our family.